Community – Jenni Clayville

Jenni’s story inspires me in what community is and should be.  It is a story full of grace and redemption.  I’m inspired also by how she’s opened her home and heart to people she’s met on Twitter and blogging for months at a time.  Jenni’s blog.  Jenni’s Twitter.

If someone told me that I would have found some of my closest and most trusted friends via social media 5 years ago… I would have laughed in their faces.

I’ve always had friends. It’s always been important to me to be surrounded by people. But no matter how surrounded I was, I usually felt pretty alone. However, I believed as long as I was surrounded, then at LEAST I would look normal… whatever that means.

It wasn’t until I confessed my BIGGEST MORAL FAILURE, did I begin to realize how alone I really was.

Besides about 5 friends, the friends I had, or use to have, around me no longer seemed interested in being around me. I’m not sure if it was because they were hurt by my decisions, didn’t want to be associated with such a public sinner or if it was because they just didn’t know what to say. Whichever way, I totally understood and counted it as a consequence to my poor choices.

I was alone. I was hurting.

But then God.

God took this time to not only reveal loving friends I never new existed, but He showed me who my real friends were. My true “besties” rose to the surface. And guess where many of us had met?

… ON EACH OTHERS BLOGS AND ON TWITTER.

These people not only prayed for Brian and my restoration, but they called, emailed, texted and encouraged us. There were days I wasn’t sure I had a friend in the world. Heck… my husband didn’t even like me. And I deserved it. And at those darkest moments, Trish or Tam would call. Or Crystal would text. Or Diane would DM me (just to name a few). And I knew…

… Though I was lonely… I wasn’t alone.

Last May, Brian and I renewed our vows. Our ceremony was intentionally VERY small. We only invited the people we felt were instrumental in our healing process. Our angels.

For the first time ever, I feel filled and surrounded more often than I feel alone. Life is SO different now.

“Human life in common is only made possible when a majority comes together which is stronger than any separate individual and which remains united against all separate individuals. The power of this community is then set up as “right” in opposition to the power of the individual, which is condemned as “brute force.”” ~ Sigmund Freud

Community has nothing to do with what is around you as much as it includes WHO has infiltrated your heart.

Community is who you let in.

Community is a reflection of you when you finally choose to be real and honest about who YOU are.

Community is what you were born to be.

The rest of the series:

Tammy ……… Alece ………Elora ……… Jen Sparks ……… Jenny Schmitz