I sometimes try so hard to get people to like me. To make sure they continue liking me. I go out of my way. I over do it.
It’s completely unhealthy. Yet lies, skeletons in my closets, various pieces of baggage have written in my emotional DNA that it must be so.
Yesterday, Tracee had an insightful post. She asked, “If you believed that God is for you, than what would your life look like?” I immediately knew my answer. It had come up in a conversation earlier in the day. And it continued to play out in my mind the rest of the evening and late into the night.
“If I truly accepted, believed that God is for me, I wouldn’t believe the lies of those who necessarily aren’t.”
Honestly, I can admit that I’ve struggled with God being for me. Because why would He want any part of a sinful, arrogant, prideful, judgmental person like me?
The lies I’ve been told, the hurts that run deep – they affect my relationship with God.
The truth is, though, that God IS FOR US! He is 100% all for us!
In Romans Paul encourages. He starts with, “I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.” and he wraps it up with a pretty bow, “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” (Romans 8:18 & 31) God knew. He knew that we’d suffer. He knew we’d fight emotional battles and physical and spiritual ones. So He laid it all out for us: “I AM FOR YOU! If you can’t trust that anyone else is, I am. “
So I’m doing my best to rest in this. In His words. That He is for me. That the lies are just that lies. And hopefully (prayerfully) over time truth will hold firm in my heart and the lies from my past will fade away. Affecting not only my relationship with God, but my relationship with my friends for the better.