I’m sitting on my couch in a barely lamp lit living room. My focus for the last hour plus has been promoting myself, or rather trying to write a proposal promoting myself in order to try and win a sponsorship to a conference.
I don’t like this. It forces me out of my comfort zone – in a sense trying to make myself look good in order to go to something that will take me even more out of my comfort zone to mingle with people.
I struggle with feelings of self doubt. Because seriously what chances does a 35 year old, barely known blogger from Phoenix have of winning.
Thoughts of self loathing aside I think this will be good for me. Whether I win or not, it has caused me to evaluate this space. Last year I wrote a post on my platform. Not much has changed in the last 14 months but it’s been healthy for me to evaluate what I write here and what I want the heart of my focus to be.