I’ve become an expert at holding.
My breath
My feelings
My anxieties
My fears
My dreams
My worries
My clenched hands
My heart
My opinions
My cares
I don’t release very easily. For a number of reasons.
I don’t want to be a burden
I want to be the strong one
My heart is just to fragile to trust again
I’m afraid
Maybe this is my problem with flying. Toni Morrison once wrote that in order to fly you have to give up what weighs you down. Only she said it with a bit more of a colorful description.
To fly. To break the bond between my feet (heart) and the soil of this earth I’m going to need to release. To exhale the all the things I’ve been holding onto.
I’ve become an expert in holding.
And maybe that’s okay for right now. But one day I’m going to have to let go and release the things I’m holding.
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Today’s post is written as part of Story 101.
