#11 A few weeks ago I listened to a podcast from Austin Stone Community Church, called the History of Redemption. One of their pastors memorized various scripture passages that from Genesis to Revelation telling the story of redemption. From the creation of earth & fall of man to Christ’s resurrection & the glory awaiting us in Heaven. The podcast brought tears to my eyes. They recently put video of this story online. I watched it yesterday and was spurred to even more tears. I encourage you to watch it. There is NO other joy greater than the redemption of man but our loving God. [you can click the picture to take you to the video. click watch sermon.]
#12 No. 12 probably doesn’t look like joy. In fact I’ll be the first to admit, it looks like chaos. But let me tell you what joy lies in this chaos. This is my dining room we’re looking at. I’m standing in the kitchen behind the island. On the table to the left are baby bundts & packaging materials I made & used to give goodies to friends & family. The left side of the table is over flowing with Christmas light boxes from a photo project Shawn is working on. In the middle next to the candle sticks are craft supplies from a Christmas gift I made for a friend. On the island is a tub of dog food. I can tell you my dogs bring me much joy. They are beyond excited to see me when I get home. JOY!!!
#13 I don’t drink coffee cause I need it. I drink it cause I enjoy it. I’m serious. I drink decaf 99.99% of the time. I enjoyed a cup the other day with homemade Christmas cookies a co-worker brought. If only there had been a fire roaring instead of the glow of LCD monitors & florescent lights.
#14 You. The generous people of the world who gave. Clean water. I am so overjoyed by this. (if you want to give you still can through 12.31.10. click here.) [edited: 10:11am / 12.16.10]
Over the last few days I’ve been listening to the Genesis Series from The Austin Stone. It’s been a great series. One particular message (The Toll of Sin vs. The Peace of Jesus) brought instant tears to these green eyes. Halfway through the message Jeff Mangum, the teacher, brings into the story Hosea and Gomer. In a brief few minutes he tells their story and convicted my heart.
One of the more impactful points Jeff made was in paraphrasing God speaking to Hosea. He told Hosea to go get Gomer. You woo her. You pursue her. If someone is bidding for her you out bid them for her. You show her, her worth is found in your love for her.
I sat at my desk hearing these words and my eyes filling with tears. I sat there and realized I’m Gomer. I’m chasing after cheap things rather than the one who loves me.
My pursuer has pursued me till death (and raised Himself from death). He’s out bid every single thing that vies for my attention, for my heart, my mind, my passion. However, I’ve continuously chosen the lower bid. I’ve chased after the things that tickle my fickle heart and leave me wanting more over the God who has given me all I need: Himself.
I’ve been less than intentional. In all honesty I haven’t been. I’ve chosen to be lazy and just get by.
This week has been hard. The past couple have been in all actuality. Exhaustion, hormones and a possible imbalance of chemicals in my brain have left me ragged and the fingers of depression tickling. I shared this with a friend yesterday. The imbalance I was feeling. I know she prayed, but I can’t help but wonder. I’m not saying that if I’d been in the Bible more consistently it would have staved off the tickles of depression, but it surely wouldn’t have hurt.
My plan for the next while is to inundate myself in the book of Hosea. To remind myself of of my sin, my prostitutional ways, and the redeeming love of my God.
Prudence is a 30-something writer who lives in Arizona with her husband Shawn and their chihuahuas Lengua and Zeus. She writes her life, her experiences and her crawl back to hope. Eventually, she hopes to visit India – a place that’s captured her heart without ever stepping foot on the soil.